Why was I always different

I have always wondered that why was I different, Apart from my own believes and thoughts, always going against the wrongs always challenging people struggling throughout my life, Struggling just because I was non compliant on my norms on traditions on being right!
 Back to back failures back to back set backs, never dwelling upon the past always thinking ahead. With so many ideas coming to my mind, creative, positive and productive, still always regarded by the society as an idiot just because of the habit of thinking outside the box
 A time came when i started being ashamed of being different than everybody else, despair was all over me lost all of my self confidence, lost all of my friends. Nearly lost my parents to, now this is what an introvert actually is. Being an extrovertly extrovert and transforming into an introvert, surely changes your life.
Being into the depths of despair, Running away from people, hurting those who accidentally got into any sort of relation with me, I never had thought that my life would change again, I never had thought I would be me agian!


Until next time!

WIthout That Presence

What you feel, Without that presence. What you think about in the absence of that presence, What is the meaning of life without that presence? What is that presence, And what does that presence mean to you? 
For me, That presence is the essence of my life. 
While i was walking around in a garden full of cherry blossoms, With snow falling down on the ground, and the leafy green background, Gazing at the pink and white, petals, Only one face that came into my mind, And then the importance of that presence, Only then i was able to realise. 
The importance of those talks, The fights, the crazy quarrels, the late night gossips, the everlasting promises and that smile, The smile that makes my world complete, The smile that is music for my ears. 
A life without that presence is meaningless, A life without that smile is purposless, And those cherey blossoms, made me realize that no matter how beautiful you, yourself are without that green contrast, Your not even half your worth.
That presence is the thing that always makes you better.

Sometimes

Sometimes, We walk with people around us. Sometimes we walk with shadows, And somedays we just walk alone. 
Somedays the sun shines bright, Sometimes the moon is high, But somedays we sit around with someone watching it pour down. 
   Sometimes, we come across with someone, That someone with whom you want to share your dreams with, Your life with. That someone who becomes the center of your dreams and you want to share your memories with. Someone who knows you from within you. Someone who has your heart, who becomes your art, that someone which makes your world revolve around them. 
    A question that, then comes in your mind while you stare at that someone, Trying to figure out all those hidden enigmas, confronting your self and with a strong sense of reasaurance you tell your self that, Yes! This is the feeling of falling in love.

The Sunrise

On the verge of a rising sun, I stood by an oak tree under the thick shade formed by its leaves, Gazing at the rising sun, shining through the clouds, it's rays being deflected, While i was getting ready to capture this moment, A question came through my mind, A question that made my world stop for a moment while i just gazed at that beautiful sight, with my mind in a baffeled state.
The question of life, The question of existance, and most importantly the question of completeness, and togetherness.
  The sun being covered by the clouds, which just added perfection to the golden glow, in a dark background with the glittering shine on the mountain tops, Made me realise that, Alone a person is never complete. Someone is always there who is meant for your completeness, Someone to hold you and lift you up, Someone to bring you out from every moment of sadness, Someone whose existance matters, With whom you can open up your heart, With a smile that certain someone helps you fill that hole in your heart. 
  That someone is important, That someone who completes you, who is precious, Precious enough, to bet your life for.                   
     Finding that someone is the most blissful hunt of life!

Love Will Never Die

When the moon was looking down, with the sun about to rise. With it's first ray falling on my camera and a shadow being casted on me, i realised that, Life always makes you go, like the sun sets and then rises again, Like the seasons change, Like day, and like night. When everything is temporary, only one thing is permanant. 
  Away from that person, with a hope to see that person again, the person that makes you feel complete. With a hope in your mind,that together you will see the seasons change, the leaves fall, the sunrises and the sunsets, your realise that true love is, Permanant. 
   Love will never die, because when the person you love, makes you realise the importance of that feeling, You yourself never let it die.

You are never too OLD to Explore

 

While i was on my way, to the top of our province, Punjab,(Patriata) Situated in Pakistan. For the first time I had an experience to sit on a "Chair Lift/ Cable Car". The height was frightening, and even more was the speed that was carrying us from the ground to a height of at least 7500 ft. from the sea level. The cable car in the midway stopped, and i saw an old man travelling up the mountain chanting out loud, You guys up there, try beating me and reach the top without these fancy machines.

In a Struggle to Live.

  In this struggle to live, have we ever noticed that what around us needs to be considered. As a part of this generation of people who tend to give up, Have we ever collectively tried to understand the circumstances of an individual right besides us?  Have we ever tried to come up to someone and ask the reason for his "Annoying", "Saddening", "Creepy crappy " snapchat stories? Have we ever considered it as a call for help? I can surely say NO!

  When does negativity overpower you? When does a happy face decide to award himself the ultimate punishment? A specific answer to these questions can not be given. Then the reason for opting suicide? We ourselves, are not even clear with that.

   In this so called fake society specifically in the "Sub Continent", the rate of suicide among people of all ages is increasing drastically. The recent statistics are not even able to cover the mortality ratio. Why do people commit suicide? Is it because of lack of social interest? Or is it because of lack of the required attention that a person needs? In my opinion, the sole reason for this drastic increase in the rate of suicide, is the lack of spiritual attachment. People of our generation lack clearance in their concepts regarding their lifestyle.We are stuck between a stigmatizing "Liberalism"  or  "Conservatism".  Instead of having an attitude of acceptance towards others we just wish the death of that person who contradicts our concepts. Spiritual connections, with our elders, our family, our friends and even our pets are deteriorating day by day. We do not consider small moments of happiness and joy in our lives, AS HAPPY MOMENTS. 

  Success is never happiness, happiness is always success and self contentment is the essence of success.

In this struggle to live, Do not try to kill yourself, because a beautiful game of football is waiting for you this weekend. 

In this struggle to live, Do not try to kill yourself, because You are beautiful.

In this struggle to live, Do not try to kill yourself, because one more morning will fix your life for sure.

In this struggle to live, Do not try to kill yourself, Because i know you can make through any situation put and hand.

In this struggle to live, Do not try to kill yourself, because its a bad day but still a good life,

In this struggle to live, Do not try to kill yourself, because an achievement has been set by your name.

In this struggle to live, Do not try to kill yourself, because netflix still offers alot of promotions.

In this struggle to live, Do not try to kill yourself, because I love you, and alot of others do to. But at the most Allah loves you, more than 70 mothers could have loved you collectively.  

Great Words By The Great Man.

Lucensy of Mother Nature

What is purity? I had always wondered.What is serenity? I had never known. A sentence that I had always been told that,"mother nature knows all." constantly kept on ringing in my conscious and compelled me to set my feet out on a journey with only one purpose, to obtain the meaning of serenity. 

What is serenity?, was the first question in my mind.
Is it a song full of life? Is it a melody that makes you dance even in the saddest hour. Or is it a feeling that bestows upon you limitless felicity. 

Nonetheless, with a long journey ahead and these questions in my mind, I saw an adorable boy, busy in his mainstream life, trying to help his mother to fetch water from the nearest well, while he was busy in his shenanigans, making endearing uncountable mischief with his mother,  he suddenly gazed upon me. With his eyes fixed upon my face, trying read my expressions, I took a glance towards the background. My heart skipped a beat and i was lost in the mesmerizing beauty of mother nature, while the boy was still staring at me, I felt like the birds had started chirping loudly and in a sense the birds were trying to tell me, that this is true serenity. All along my journey, mother nature was trying to answer me but I was at fault, because i was not knowing her language.

Now with one answer in my bag, and some hope along with me I had decided to move on. Again, while passing through this valley full of unlimited aesthetics, I stumbled upon those rocky mountains, trying to reach as high as possible, and as soon as possible, because of that arduous routine that i had left back at home, was waiting for me. A few days had passed, and I was no where near to finding the second answer. With all my hopes shattered, and the time of my departure coming near, I was packing my bags, when a local guide came to take me to hike one last time, and there again I was astounded that as soon as we reached the intended place, I stared upon the mountains far far away from me, conscious started telling me that purity, is something that is beyond the reach of mankind.

 Purity is a feeling of completeness, that mere humans like us can feel for only a few moments but never, can we understand the true meaning of this word. We can explore, but we can never create.

"Mother Nature is always speaking. She speaks in a language understood within the peaceful mind of the sincere observer. Leopards, cobras, monkeys, rivers and trees; they all served as my teachers when I lived as a wanderer in the Himalayan foothills."
Rhadanath Swami

A special thanks to Fatima for letting me use her pictures. Of course all the credits go to her.

Self Belief

I Always Thought It Was

“Possible”

And, I always thought that it was possible. It was possible to do anything; it was possible to accomplish anything. Anything because this human mind is such a beautiful gift that you can accomplish anything, you can achieve any miracle just by the force of will and determination. You can build galaxies, but will, determination, and intelligence are not the only things that are required. Hard work and hard work alone is superior to all the above mentioned attributes. To be naturally gifted is a blessing but not utilizing ones abilities is a curse and a disgrace to these awarded abilities. I always thought it was possible without “Hard work”, But I was always wrong. To be at your best you need to polish your qualities and that is something what only hard work can bring out.

 Every negative situation contains the possibility of something positive. Turning dust into Gold is not easy, difficulties do come. Nothing is beyond reach and only hard work paves the way to success.

Success isn't always about greatness. It's about consistency. Consistent hard work leads to success. Greatness will come.

Self belief is the essence of hard work. When we fall down, sometimes after a very hard blow it is always difficult to get up again. Not getting up again,and giving up always limits your abilities, conquerors never sit back or relax they get up again and again and again, because they believe in themselves. They believe in their own capabilities and they believe that they are the ones who are meant to do it.

The only time you fail is when you fall down and stay down.” 

― Stephen Richards

Your sense of who you are, will always determine your actions and what you end up getting in life. A limited imagination and a “reach” which has boundaries, will never help a person to face difficulties in life. The dangers of life are always beyond imagination and an approach that has no limits, than can break all boundaries is the only right approach. Breaking the barriers of limited and conventional thinking has always been the best strategy to register your name in the books of  history. Starting from the light bulb, till the invention of an I phone, all of these Famed creators had done the “impossible”, “possible”. All of them had worked hard, All had self belief, because even after failing continuously they never gave up, they kept on striving, aiming towards there goal they kept. They dedicated whole of their lives, just for there ambition just for their dream.

I believe that God has put gifts and talents and ability on the inside of every one of us. When you develop that and you believe in yourself and you believe that you're a person of influence and a person of purpose, I believe you can rise up out of any situation. 

Joel Osteen

Sense of self worth comes from you alone, people always degrade you, doubt your abilities. It is only you who can do it, As I always say only you are the one, who is capable.

Courage

"Courage is the first of human qualities because it is the quality that guarantees all the others. – Winston Churchill

 Who, does not know Sir Winston Churchill! One of the Greatest British rulers we have witnessed. Tells us about this gem of an attribute.Courage is one of those attributes that enable a person to overcome his self implicated limits. Being Fearful always limits one's abilities. Fear from taking a risk, fear of failing, fear of not being able to do something, fear of losing ones life, and fear of taking a risk. All of these collectively limit a persons abilities.

It is always easy to rationalize your own doubts and conservative instincts,particularly when times are tough. Courage and self belief, can never be inoculated into a person. These qualities are always attained as a natural gift, a blessing. These can result either as a consequence of a hard blow, that you have faced in your life, if you are a slow learner, or this can be acquired as a result of an observation of other people facing similar problems.

Continuous effort – not strength or intelligence – is the key to unlocking our potential.   Winston Churchill

Effort always requires courage and courage is always dependent on your strength. Is there any one who has ever gained success in life without a continuous failure, without facing hardships, or without a continuous effort. I would confidently say NO.

Effort can always beat talent. Talent and effort combined together are an unmatched pair.

“Every day you may make progress. Every step may be fruitful. Yet there will stretch out before you an ever-lengthening, ever-ascending, ever-improving path. You know you will never get to the end of the journey. But this, so far from discouraging, only adds to the joy and glory of the climb.” 

– Winston Churchill 

A journey to your dreamy success is a lifelong voyage, an adventure which has a chest full of joy waiting for you at the finishing line. And if someone never musters up enough courage to take the first step then how will he be able to conquer his dreams. To conquer his dreams he needs that courage, the one that urges a person to take that first step in his life. 

People fail, people fall down, people break. Only those who gather enough courage along the way to stand up every time they fall, are the ones who are remembered.

COPD

Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD) is a chronic inflammatory lung disease that causes obstructed airflow from the lungs. Symptoms include breathing difficulty, cough, mucus (sputum) production and wheezing. It's caused by long-term exposure to irritating gases or particulate matter, most often from cigarette smoke. People with COPD are at increased risk of developing heart disease, lung cancer and a variety of other conditions.

Emphysema and chronic bronchitis are the two most common conditions that contribute to COPD. Chronic bronchitis is inflammation of the lining of the bronchial tubes, which carry air to and from the air sacs (alveoli) of the lungs. It's characterized by daily cough and mucus (sputum) production.

Emphysema is a condition in which the alveoli at the end of the smallest air passages (bronchioles) of the lungs are destroyed as a result of damaging exposure to cigarette smoke and other irritating gases and particulate matter.

COPD is treatable. With proper management, most people with COPD can achieve good symptom control and quality of life, as well as reduced risk of other associated conditions.

COPD symptoms often don't appear until significant lung damage has occurred, and they usually worsen over time, particularly if smoking exposure continues. For chronic bronchitis, the main symptom is a daily cough and mucus (sputum) production at least three months a year for two consecutive years.

Other signs and symptoms of COPD may include:

• Shortness of breath, especially during physical activities
• Wheezing
• Chest tightness
• Having to clear your throat first thing in the morning, due to excess mucus in your lungs
• A chronic cough that may produce mucus (sputum) that may be clear, white, yellow or greenish
• Blueness of the lips or fingernail beds (cyanosis)
• Frequent respiratory infections
• Lack of energy
• Unintended weight loss (in later stages)
• Swelling in ankles, feet or legs

People with COPD are also likely to experience episodes called exacerbations, during which their symptoms become worse than usual day-to-day variation and persist for at least several days.

Unlike some diseases, COPD has a clear cause and a clear path of prevention. The majority of cases are directly related to cigarette smoking, and the best way to prevent COPD is to never smoke — or to stop smoking now.

If you're a longtime smoker, these simple statements may not seem so simple, especially if you've tried quitting — once, twice or many times before. But keep trying to quit. It's critical to find a tobacco cessation program that can help you quit for good. It's your best chance for preventing damage to your lungs.

Occupational exposure to chemical fumes and dust is another risk factor for COPD. If you work with this type of lung irritant, talk to your supervisor about the best ways to protect yourself, such as using respiratory protective equipment

Parkinsonism

Parkinson’s disease (PD) is the most common neurodegenerative cause of parkinsonism, a clinical syndrome characterized by lesions in the basal ganglia, predominantly in the substantia nigra.
As a rule, PD begins between the ages of 40 and 70 years, with peak age onset in the seventh decade. The prevalence of PD is approximately 160 cases per 100,000 population, and the incidence is about 20 cases per 100,000 population. The pathological changes of PD may appear as early as three decades before the appearance of clinical signs. The cause of PD is probably multi factorial, with contributions from hereditary predisposition, environmental toxins, and aging.

 Symptoms can take years to develop, and most people live for many years with
the disease. The symptoms caused by Parkinson’s include an ongoing loss of  motor
control (resting tremors, stiffness, slow movement, postural instability) as well as a
wide range of non-motor symptoms (such as depression, loss of sense of smell, gastric problems and cognitive changes).
Parkinson's disease can cause varying and progressive symptoms throughout its course. Some of the most common symptoms associated with the disease include:

• difficulty showing facial expressions
• muscle stiffness
• slowed, affected movements
• speech changes
• tremor, especially of one hand

A person with Parkinsonism may have some, but not all, of the symptoms listed above. This is because they also have an additional disorder that affects the brain's functioning.

For example, people with Parkinsonism often do not have the hand tremor that affects many people with Parkinson's disease.

Other symptoms associated with Parkinsonism include:

• dementia
• issues with the autonomic nervous system, such as problems with controlled movements or spasms
• early problems with balance
• rapid onset and progression of symptoms

Treatment should always be advised by an expert and a qualified medical practitioner.